Endless pattern

Its started again, sleeping too much yet not enough

Slowly slipping wasting away day

Avoiding the shower, as if it was the front line

I know myself; it is getting bad again

I can’t keep lying to myself,

I’m relapsing again

An endless cycle, wishing it would end

Tired of fighting, endless battles

No one understands the pain

They try but they can’t

Feeling alone in a crowded room

Having love and support

Yet no one to turn too

The family burden a constant worry

It’s exhausting, I need the pattern to end