Rachel Moses
I [used to] love drawing. Now the thoughts and voices in my head try to stop me; “That’s no good. Why do you think you can do this? You’re stupid. Everything you do is ‘rubbish’. Destroy it.” When I was creating for this exhibition, I felt that I couldn't show anything I’d done. I realised how much a bin full of paper actually really does represent my experience of BPD. Perhaps my perception of rubbish is actually not rubbish if it can be seen as art. Maybe this is also true for who I am.
I [used to] love drawing. Now the thoughts and voices in my head try to stop me; “That’s no good. Why do you think you can do this? You’re stupid. Everything you do is ‘rubbish’. Destroy it.” When I was creating for this exhibition, I felt that I couldn't show anything I’d done. I realised how much a bin full of paper actually really does represent my experience of BPD. Perhaps my perception of rubbish is actually not rubbish if it can be seen as art. Maybe this is also true for who I am.
Although I struggle with not being ‘good enough’ at art, I have enjoyed creating it for years. I particularly love drawing, however in this exhibition I’ve actually created a mini installation. I have a diagnosis of BPD and my art in this exhibition expresses my struggle living with this condition.